5 words that describe me as I am now.

1. Tired- It has now been 6 days and I am still adjusting to the time difference. Also, I have never walked this much in my life! (well except for when I walked through OK that one time....) Besides being physically tired, I am emotionally drained which leads me to my next description.
2. Stretched- I have need felt so clearly on the top of a mountain while also being in the deep valley. Emotionally and spiritually and on to completely different sides of the spectrum. I'm so excited for our team, and this beautiful city. I'm so thankful for the amazing opportunity God has given to me. But at the same time I miss home, I miss family. I'm scared of what is to come, the unknown.
3. Antsy- We are living out of suitcases in our team leader's home, and I haven't pick a pen and paper in forever! I'm ready to find our own place, I'm ready to get my hands dirty, drawing, making, baking and creating things. I'm ready for what is next.
4. Dependent- I am in need to of some guidance. Like I mentioned above, I feel like I'm in deep valley- a dark deep valley. I am feeling dependent on Christ to guide my path.
5. Alone- I do not speak the language of my new home and I am starting to feel the affects. I need a friends. I need friends. Our team is learning to living in community with one another and it is hard to open up and be vulnerable it's strange that we resist intimacy for fear of being hurt but we need it more than anything. We need to be loved and to love. God created us to be relational to be "naked." But there is so much risk in allowing some, no inviting some one to your space. Right now I feel alone, but I'm hopeful that....

This too shall pass.